Adjusting My Make Up

My room after you left it keeps getting muddied white as if the past is a faraway fog The strength I can’t prove a second time keeps growing hazy If it rains on our parting this morning, fine I knew loneliness, meeting you But I lost you, and now I’m truly alone for the first time A fragrant loquat – our garden has been rotting away wounded for a long time now So many times we’ve said too many goodbyes Please come home just once more Because I won’t put your love to waste that time, really I knew loneliness, meeting you And I became aware that I’ve been losing you too all throughout this long time When words fluttered around and withered in midair I finally realized it That I am truly alone